new start

today one chapter in my life drew to a close or at least i hope it
did. i asked to speak to the chief at work today and if managed to
answer some questions i had. i then said what i needed to this
afternoon to put an end to the nightmare that i have been in the last
god knows how many weeks. i was careful how i worded things.

i now want to think of things as if i am making a new start from
tomorrow. you hear that people dont change but that's rubbish i have
been like a chameleon over the last few years and have completely
metamorphised myself.

i want to change the things i dont like in my life and increase the
things i enjoy as well as trying new stuff and of course learning new
skills that interest me. where all of this leads me i dont know.

i really want to go off walking on my own again but trying to put it
off until after the great north run. i am really going to struggle at
the run. i have less than 3 weeks and still can't motivate myself to
get off my arse and train.

one of my previous posts was about concerts to see. as well as booking
some more of them, i need to enter as many other tasks and activities
into my calendar as possible and somehow make sure i actually do
them.

i would like to find a friend who i get on well with who would enjoy
going walking. my parents just cant cope with some of the walks i want
to do now. i like to do some on my own but other times it could be
good to go with someone else!

i really need to get an increase of income to enable me to do more.
there just isn't enough time to fit everything in and i certainly
don't have the money to do it all. i don't want to waste the time i
have left being sedentry like i have for much of the last 27 years.
when i go i want to be able to look back and think of all the things i
experienced in life :-)