Bit Better

I feel a bit better today. I focused on what I needed to do, but all I can do now is wait...

My next problem is one I have had for some time, deciding what the hell I want to do with my life. I have said before I'm no good at making decisions. My main problem is, I just don't know what I want to do. I have always been good and loved working with computers, but in recent months I have become so fed up of the same things day in day out and the office culture that I seriouslt don't know anymore.

I am happy when helping people out but don't want to be on some helpdesk where you deal with the same problems all the time. I haven't got the cash to setup my own business or would seriously concider it. I have a wealth of knowledge and can't remember ever being completely stumped with any IT problem. If I don't know, I find out, then fix the problem. Thats what I hav always loved about computers, always having to learn new skills which are interesting.

It just seams that in a normal office job you are stuck dealing with the same programs and the same problems day in day out.

So in looking back what I just wrote, I still do love working on computers but maybe not in an office environment or not for one company. Over the years I have had a recurring dream that I was in a pub/restaurant and overheard a couple of people talking at the bar about their IT problems in the 2 companies they owned. In the dream I said I could help them and ended up being contracted to provide IT support to the 2 companies but was actually self employed. In my dreams I guess I have already answered my question of what I want to do. Now how the hell to go about it?

I may go away for a few days after tomorrow and do some thinking but need to go somewhere cheap. Would love to go walking in Scotland for a few days but don't have the equipment (light tent, Sleeping bag, large bag, etc..)