Love is never easy?

Maybe i am destined to be alone?

I know who i love and she knows how i feel, i guess love was never going to easy for me. Difficult situation i am in but prepared to wait as long as it takes.

Hopefully i havent messed anything up, i was out with jay on friday night. Drink and a phone is dangerous for me. I sent quite a few texts, i meant what i wrote in them but may of been better if i hadnt sent them.

I was out again on Saturday and i was told that Kelly who i was seeing is getting married. I had made the decision ages ago about who i wanted to be with but i was still very close to Kelly. Felt like i had been punched when i was told. thought she would of told me.

just hope for once everything goes right for me, this is my second chance that i knew/hoped would happen determined not to throw it away again.