Thinking Time

I've had a frustrating weekend. After finding out my second shower had a part missing. Then finding out Kelly who I used to see a year ago was about to split up with her partner or had split up. I though I've had enough of this weekend and decided to go for a drive up the dale in the dark to clear my head.

I was hoping the headaches were behind me now I have the keys and don't have to deal with the solicitors anymore but it appears they are only just beginning!

I mentioned Kelly is/has split up with her partner, this is a very complicated situation which isn't anything to do with me other than we are still good friends. When I was seeing her she was still with him (bad I know). She was gonna leave him when we were together but I told her to think about it and make sure that's what she wanted. Think I wanted the time as well, not long after that I guess I ended it. Its more difficult because she has a 3 year old son with him, if she stays with him she is nuts because she doesn't love him and only stays with because of their son. I say only but I think its wrong to stay with someone when you don't love them.

I guess I'm gonna have to be a good mate and help her out. Although don't have much time at the moment for obvious reasons.

That wasn't really why I went for a drive but did get me thinking about things. I can remember writing a few months ago saying that all any of us want is to be loved and to love someone. Maybe that's just me but I often think that's why people stay together because they are afraid of the unknown and scared of being alone. They stay together because its easier even though it makes both of them unhappy.

I can remember saying to my best mate that he falls in love easy (don't normally talk that openly with my mates at home), he agreed I was right. Maybe I'm the same or when I think about it I'm probably not because I push some people away without ever giving them a chance.

I think I sorted myself out by going for a drive and came back wondering what the hell I was twisting about. I have excellent family and friends and now own a house and own all sorts, I have no reason to complain only reasons to smile :-)

Yet I believe the happiest person is someone who has someone to share their life with...

On my way home I nearly ended up crashing into a Punto and 2 police cars maybe that had something to do with me realising how lucky I am (thank god for ABS). There had been an accident near Wolsingham and the police cars had stopped just around the corner and its a fast corner. They should of stopped before the corner so any approaching cars could see well before, that would involve them having a brain cell!