Every now and again I hear a song that just hits home, I am constantly listening to "The Beatles - A Day In The Life". For some reason its just constantly in my head and almost brought a tear (I said almost) not quite sure why. Something about the music makes me look at my own life!
Its been a very strange day today but generally good. Before I write anymore I know someone who means a lot to me will probably read this. Its hard to write when you know someone you care so much about and have written about will read it. Imagine someone reading your diary and being a little scared of what they make of what you've wrote.
Today has been very hectic at work but I don't really want to bore anyone (myself included) by writing about work.
The best thing that has happened to me today is I have started talking to the person I mentioned in my previous posts more openly. Its been hard ever since we stopped seeing each other. I don't think anything will ever happen again, although if I'm honest I wish it would. But more than that I've missed her as a friend. For some reason I always felt I could tell her anything although more often than not I would clam up and say nothing, regret it now :-(
I hope we can keep talking how we are, its been hard the last few months. We have both felt awkward and not known what to say to each other. Yet what I really wanted to do was give her a hug as often knew she had stuff on her mind and looked like she needed it, maybe me imagining it.
The 1st time we went out for something to eat I can remember sitting in the restaurant (pub) and thinking how at ease I felt and how perfect it felt at the time (wasn't drinking either). It was the 1st time I had met her outside of work. I can remember saying loads about me that I would normally never tell anyone but for some reason I opened up.
I wont say anymore tonight, think I've said enough and not fair to write about people publicly.
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