2nd part

I decided to do this as a 2nd post as it is just about work.

This morning was very boring, i have got to exactly the same point i was at when working for the red cross. I just couldnt give a shit about what i am doing and have no interest in any of it. I keep catching myself sitting there doing nothing but day dreaming and cant concentrate on work at all.

I had hoped that there would be some things coming up but i know its just wishful thinking. I have got to the point of no return i fear, no matter what i am given i just have no motivation. There are some good things at the moment i guess, i am out of the office a fair bit over the next week doing training. I am normally not all that keen on doing training but this is ok as i know all the people i am training and it is easy. The 1st one today went well and everyone understood it so its a good start.

I said i had reached the point of no return, i mean where i just cant see anything getting anymore interesting or learning anything new in my job that catches my interest. Since november last year i was told i could go on some training which i thought would be good it hasnt really materialised although i have been asked to look for some but the problem is i am limited really to i couple of courses because they have to be totally relevant to my job now. The only courses i can see like that wouldnt benefit me as i wouldnt learn anything much new. They would be a waste of my time and works money. Wish i could do a course that was more interesting and would develop me for the future rather than just for today.

I stayed in this situation for a year or so at the red cross maybe longer before i saw an opportunity to leave by taking redundancy. maybe i need to be looking for a door out again before i go nuts from boredom. Will keep my eyes open for another job although not sure what i want to do anymore. I have always wanted to work with computest because there is always something new to learn and i am good at it. I have become so disillusioned though recently that i am thinking of giving it up.

The last 2 posts sound so negative but i guess i only really write a lot when i am down and have stuff on my mind.

Think i could do with 3 months out like the ones simon is having from work. The lucky bugger is spending 3 months in canada, alright for some!