Update

I haven't posted anything for several days. A lot seams to of happened over the last few days.

I was out on Friday night with people from work, it was a good night but seams ages ago now. Didn't notice any scandal :-(

On Saturday I went to have a look at a house for sale along my street, it was strange looking around someone's house when its has been repossessed and you know them. All of their personal stuff was still in there. The house wasn't bad but in my opinion does need some work. Ceilings need doing, not sure if there is something up with the roof. I know they were worried about it when we had some strong winds a few weeks ago and there is some damp in the house. Although this is to be expected with an older house.

I've been sat working out if I can afford the house and I don't think I can, would really struggle paying the mortgage and all the bills on my wage. Unless I can find a few thousand from somewhere (no chance). The only thing that worries me is, I can't see houses getting any cheaper, so I either need to earn more money or move in with someone :-(

I went out again last night with mates it was very busy you could hardly move in some pubs, it wasn't a bad night but got a chinese and walked home. It wasn't all that late (just after 11), I ended up walking past the pub where Lisa works and I texted her. I then ended up going and seeing her after I ate my chinese (it must of been the drink). I woke up this morning and thought shit what have I done. She texted me once today and I haven't replied, not going to either. I need to sort a few situations and this is one. I am going absolutely nowhere near Lisa again!!

Kelly is away on holiday this week, that's another situation I need to sort out. Although I miss her that's not going anywhere either.

Lastly I mentioned that I still really cared about someone I saw last year, unfortunately that isn't going anywhere either. Not gonna say anything more on this!

Think I need some time on my own to sort stuff out again, maybe I get myself into all these situations because I'm lonely and just crave company (I don't know). Then again I seam to of been staying in loads recently and not seeing people so that cant be it. I feel like just getting away from everything at the moment fed up of nothing working out.