Thoughts

Im laid in bed aching from my sickly run mentioned below but it feels good to be physically tired rather than just mentally tired.

I am tempted to get up and do some crunches and press ups but will stop myself and do them in the morning.

To me, I feel overweight, most people looking at me probably wouldnt really notice any difference but I just feel slugish and out of shape. So I am gonna have to do something about it or gonna get worse...

I am going to try and get my life back on track everytime i think i am getting somewhere something goes wrong quite often it involves a woman :-(

I was supposed to of been going out for something to eat last week with Kelly but she never replied to me and hadnt contacted me for days. It was her birthday today so sent her a message wishing happy birthday. She replied just saying thx. Asked if she was ok and she had been ill with a kidney infection would of been nice for her to tell me. She has again gone quiet so think that says it all?

Its another birthday tomorrow, the person who i said i still really like but i better swiftly move on before i make things any worse :-(

I have supervision at work tomorrow which is where you talk over what you have been doing and whats going on and plan things that need doing. Hopefully officially book my time off next month when its my birthday. Think i should book a couple of days in Scotland. Looking at a hotel in a hamlet where i used to stay years ago. We used to rent a house then but would love to go back and see things again. Its a perfect place to get away from everything and think.

Gradually getting things sorted. I have been working on totally sorting out all my finances and within 6 weeks i will owe nothing but my car payments. The total payment commitments i will have will be around £300 and over half of that is the car. So will have some spare money but want to save as much as i can for a change.

Really looking forward to some time off work, all i am doing is answering the phone. Anyone who knew me a few years ago would know how much i hated that. I am sure i said in my interview that i didnt want a job that was helpdesk and was assured it wasnt. it wasnt for the 1st 9 months but seams to be these days due to me being at my desk more than anyone else recently. Think its time i stopped learning anymore so i can pass more stuff over like everyone else does.

Simon at work has asked for 2 months off later in the year to take some time out. He is wanting to go to Canada and guess go exploring. Think he has maybe been inspired by Ray Mear. I would love to be able to do something like that but would get bored spending the whole 2 months in one country even though Canada has so much but would love to travel around the states as well. There is no chance of me doing this as i cant afford to, no savings what so ever yet!

Could go on rambling on for ages but think i need some sleep.