Thinking

I drove into work slowly this morning and even took a back route to work, just felt like a change and a relaxing drive. I was still in before 8AM.

The last few days I feel like I am just drifting again, not sure exactly what I want to do. Decisions, I'm not good at them. I kinda need something to happen to kickstart me.

I really need to get out training for the Great North Run but have a total lack of motivation, too tired on a morning and can't be bothered when I get in from work. I know if I could just get up and get out, I would be fine and probably enjoy it. I did look to see what time the swimming baths opened in Crook on a morning. I fancied going before work but they don't open until 9, so thats out.

I seam to of upset my dad as well, I was fuming on Monday night when some files had been deleted from my server and knew my dad had been using them that day. But in the end does it reall matter. NO, they are only files!

I love having my own house but recently  at times wish I didn't have it. If I didn't, I would of just walked out of my job, but can't. I think I've decided to stick it out a bit longer, unless I see something I really fancy doing or get totally pissed off. Can't afford to just leave and don't want to just do any job and hate that as well. Can I not just in the lottery or something. Then again money doesn't make you happy, would rather be doing a job I love :-)