looking back

I decided to do a post looking back at the last year, so here goes. I'm going to do this from memory and not look back at my archive of posts.

The year started off quite good in my personal life, I met Kelly when I was out with my best mate at the end of the 2004 and we became very close. Although she was attached and had a son, she didn't love the bloke she was with but was her sons dad. So not easy to leave him. At one point she was going to, but I don't know if I got scared of was being sensible and told her to wait a few days to make sure she still felt the same, she didn't leave him. I met her son and he was very wary of me but he was a nice kid. Although he didn't seam to want to have anything to do with me which was hard, normally kids like me. Anyway with Kelly working shifts and living with someone, we hardly saw each other. So I did some serious thinking and realised although I loved her. I didn't love her as much as I'd loved someone else a few months earlier, so I ended it. Having said that we are still good friends now and keep in touch by text.

My personal life started off good but work wasn't so good, I think I was at my lowest point for sometime in February. I was bored, unchallenged and basically fed up. I told my unit manager how I felt. Nobody had any idea how bad I was feeling. I really didn't care about anything. Maybe this was also to do with not seeing Kelly very much at the time as well. I'm not sure!

I managed to pick myself up though, not sure much has really changed at work. I'm just not bothered by it anymore. I have made some more friends this year at work, there will be very few people in the County who don't at least know me by sight (out of 330).

One way I have changed a lot this year is I'm now a lot more open about everything. I was always the complete opposite, I'd keep everything bottled up until I exploded and with my temper that was never a good thing. I can't really rememeber losing my temper at all this year, the odd occassion where I have started to I've walked away. A couple of times I've gone home early when out drinking, still wouldn't back down from a fight but just avoid the situation in the 1st place. Must be growing old and wise (or soft).

I've also got back in touch with a few friends, Laura, Jeremy & Julie. All of which I used to work with. Also bumped into a few others recently like Alison.

Mentioned above that most people know me at work but I've also made more good friends this year. Also good friends again with some that I'd sort of drifted apart from. I must admit I do seam to talk a lot more on the phone these day. If I remember back just 4 years I HATED the phone and would never ring anyone if I could help it. How I've changed!!

Anyway this is supposed to be looking back on the year...

I haven't been away much on Holiday but did go to Scotland for a few days which did me some good. I went to Amulree where I used to stay when I was about 13. The best part was being shown around the house I used to stay in, it was up for sale.

I also walked part of the pennine way with my dad a couple of months ago. I've been fishing a few times with my dad and uncle as well. Caught quite a few fish as well, you wouldn't think I would like fishing as I don't have much patience but it gives me time to think (which I do lots of). I've done quite a few decent walks in North Yorkshire and locally.

My mind is starting to go blank now, probably should look back through my blog but wont.

I met a couple of people on the internet although not in person. I met strange lady (only kidding ) called Angelika who just decided to ring me on Skype one day. We have been friends ever since and she often seams to have as much bad luck with relationships as me. I also met her friend Wendy, who since I met her has left her husband is now due to give birth to twins in a few weeks with her new man :-) (never met either in person but hopefully will do one day)

How could I forget I also jumped out of a plane and went Snowboarding (not at the same time).

The last few months I gave myself a list of things to do & buy and achieved quite a few although I kepe adding to the list all the time so never goes down. So probably done a lot more the last part of the year than the 1st.

I know I have missed absolutely loads out but there is no point in writing everything as I/you could just read my blog and see what I did. If I look back I would say overall I have a good year I feel a lot better in myself than I did at the beginning and feel like I have achieved some things I've always wanted to do. Probably the best part is gaining some more friends.

Finally I am well on the way to getting my house. Its a shame it couldn't of been finished this year but it should be very soon in the new year :-) (1st few week sof January I hope)

Was gonna add pictures but look bckt through my other posts, there are pictures relating to most things already there. Now onto thinking about the next year...