Thinking

I'm sat at the computer listening to classical music (Schubert - Ave Maria) not that keen on this song prefer one of the previous without singing like "Grieg - Morning (from Peer Gynt Suite No.1)" really like that song and everyone will of heard it before. I'm listening to Classic FM: Relax & Escape. Nothing like classical music to help you chill out, relax and think.

I know I have diverse music tastes from metal to classical to Happy Hardcore and most things in between.

Just decided that I should see some classical music being performed by an orchestra, that should be on my list of things to do. A bit different to the Iron Maiden concert in December but life is a journey of experiences and I'm now more determined than ever to enjoy as many as possible.
I have spent most of my life wishing and dreaming things will happen, rather than making those very dreams come true. If only I had stopped floating through life with a head full of dreams and taken action sooner, then I could of achieved and experiences so much by now.
I am now trying to change my way of thinking from wishing something would happen, to trying to achieve it and making it happen wherever possible.
Two of my biggest weaknesses are motivation and commitment, I struggle with both. In June I will be 27 (not old I know) but when I look back on my life since leaving school 11 years ago, all I can see is disappointment and under-achievement. I can't let that happen in the next 11 years, presuming I am still here, you never know what's around the corner, I don't want my memory to be "if only.."

Sat here for a few minutes and just thought to myself listening to "Part - Spiegel im Spiegel" and remember that I always wished I could play an instrument like the guitar or piano, know I don't have any natural musical ability (other than loving music) but it would be good to be able play music. My sister did have a keyboard, will find out if she still has it. Wont have any time at the moment to play (too busy with house). I could try to refresh my memory of how to read music, never was much good at it. That's another thing to add to the list.
I was always angry about missing out on music lessons in junior school. We did a test and the person next to me copied every one of my answers and they got to learn an instrument and I didn't, even worse when that person decided they didn't want to do it after a few weeks. Having said that, with my lack of commitment I would of probably dropped out as well (maybe that was why I didn't get to do it?). That sort of put me off music (playing it).

I want to stay here and think some more, but I must go to bed. Need to be in work early to pick some laptops up and go to Darlington.