Why are women so complicated?

Me and Kelly have been in touch a lot over the last few days, we sort of didn't talk much for a few weeks. Probably because of the situation she was in being in a relationship and having a son. But as we always were, we are still very close and really understand each other. Hopefully chatting (only by texts) has helped us both. (I better clarify this, I don't mean Kelly Johnson. In case anyone from work reads this)

I just feel as confused as ever, still really care about Kelly but always find it hard to drop my guard, been hurt too many times before. She said I need to learn to let go and let someone in. Don't think she was necessarily meaning her but she is right.

It was a bit odd yesterday, when at one of our other offices at work, the person I keep never mentioning the name of. I was working upstairs on my own and she came to tell me that someone needed my help. The weird thing is the room I was in isn't on the way to anywhere and not her job to do that sort thing. Especially when she had been trying to avoid me recently. When she spoke I got the feeling she wanted to say more than just the message but didn't know what to say. I didn't either as I was surprised she came to find me.

I sent an email later on saying that sorry we didn't get chance to speak coz she disappeared quickly. She said that she didn't know what to say. I said I didn't want to go back to ignoring each other again. I just don't understand her.

I was a bit pissed off recently with her because I was told some stuff that she had supposedly said to others at work and it wasn't true, but I shouldn't go off hearsay. Why can't people just talk (this coming from me, lol).

This makes me sound like I've been stringing to people along, I haven't me and Kelly decided it wasn't working a while ago and I realised how much I still cared for the other (this is getting hard not being able to say a name). I am still very close to Kelly though and often wonder if I made the right decision? (from recent events anyone would think not, sick of being treated like shit)