Thank you

Thanks Robert, I've read the quote you wrote in the comments of my last post a few times tonight. Didn't quite take it in when I was bleary eyed before work this morning.

I have had more bad news today, received my job appeal results but I'm not gonna write about them tonight or will just make myself angry again. I've calmed down a lot because of two things. One is re-reading Roberts comment (guessing its you, always post anonymously). The other I have recalled a post on the Teesside bulletin board about why someone is running the race for life. Several members of her family have either died or have been diagnosed with cancer. As well as some of her friends. It popped into my head while I opened up my blog, what have I got to complain about when people out there are fighting cancer and many other things, with a smile and succeeding. Another girl has just popped into my head who was mentioned on Look North last week who decided to refuse any further treatment because she wanted to die with dignity, she was only 16 but an inspiration to many. She is remembered as the girl who was always smiling.

If it weren't for these stories and quotes I would be throwing my job in tomorrow. They have just made me think. Thank you to all 3 of you, one of which is sadly is no longer with us. I must remember to sponsor Ann in Teesside for her race for life and email her. If I get 2 minutes break tomorrow I think I will copy her post and post it tomorrow night on here so you can read it.

When I first left school I wanted the exact job I have now, now I have achieved it, I'm moaning?
I'm realising I always want more, I do something hard or worthwhile but normally rather than being proud of the achievement. I think of how I could of done it better and feel unhappy about it. I can think of a few examples, the Great North Run where I was very unhappy with my time, yet it was over 5 miles more than anything I'd ever ran and my first race. I also moaned about not climbing Ben Nevis via the CMD Arete yet at least I got up. I need to learn to enjoy what I have done :-)